This song is a reflection of the mystery that faith is a gift from God, given to us long before we even know how to desire Him. Through struggle and humility, this song wrestles with the realization that we cannot truly want to love God until we surrender control and allow Him to shape our hearts.
As I count the years,
That I’ve been through,
The start of my walk,
Given to me in Grace
Before I could want to.
It was His gift,
Faith specifically for me
Completely undeserved,
Calling me to live free
Not knowing I could want to
I was tested in His patience,
As I learned how to grow,
Not knowing how to do this,
But He was willing to show
So, I’m asking You today
To help me loosen my grip
On worldly desires
During my earthly trip
I’m tired in my struggles
And the shadows they create
The selfishness of me
Put chains on the free
There is one thing I know
And of this I am sure
I can’t want to love You
UntiI I give You control